Another Day in Hell

Hari ini dimulai dengan ketiadaan boss saya yang lagi sakit, biarpun besok and lusa ada meeting manajemen dan ada bejibun report yang harus dia periksa sebelum meeting. Kemudian org safety discuss lagi masalah tiadanya standard pemakain PPE untuk seluruh area pabrik. Soalnya di sini mah satu pabrik tapi penguasanya banyak kale. Sebenarnya tinggal satu divisi lagi si yang bandel. Seriously, apa si susahnya pake helmet??? Kayak dipaksa makan racun aja. Capedee.. Akhirnya menghabiskan waktu lebih dari setengah jam berbuih-buih trying to make my point on why standard itu diperlukan. A long and never ending argument.. I’m really sick of it. Sekali lagi.. apa si susahnya pake helmeeet?? Saya aja yang sangat mementingkan rambut ga susah.. yang kerja lapangan pula yang susah. Lebih baik selamat lah daripada nyesel.. Masak mau tunggu cilaka dulu baru mau ambil tindakan?

Uda begitu lagi-lagi hari ini diganggu nyonya lagi. Jelas-jelas dokumen yang dia mau uda pernah gua kasi and dia juga ngaku pernah lihat. Tapi ntah file dimana. Punya sekretaris macam apa si? Itu satu file gitu tebal masak bisa ilang? Emangnya asal document dikasi orang itu untuk dibuang ya? Apa kerjaan gua cuma gini ya? Kayak server. Document hilang cari dia aja tuh…. Prosedur ga tau.. tanya dia aja tuhh.. ngapain capek2 baca sendiri.. Bahkan hari ini gua dapet email lagi yang menanyakan mengenai kriteria keretakan yang diperbolehkan untuk ruang GMP!! !@!#$$%%&*()()^%$ I know they’re nice people actually and I felt bad for talking like this.. tp kesabaran kan ada batasnyaa.. Dan punya saya bener2 limited edition punya. Malah di push lagi.. Itu semua standard uda gua kasi. Baca donk bacaaaa.. Masak semua2 kudu saya yang ngerti dan saya amini baru bisa jalan? Plis dech…

Uda gitu masalah evaluasi supplier. Pas meeting, PIC nya okeh okeh aja. Berarti bisa toh?? Atau manggut2 ga jelas? Saya juga sekarang jadi ragu2. Abis meeting, cari dia suruh bikin baru de keluar 1001 alasan ga bisa. Napa juga kan waktu meeting ga nanya dengan jelas langsung di oke kan? So what’s the point of the meeting kalau akhirnya gua harus habisin 1 jam mengulangi dari awal lagi? Nanya pula ama gua bole begini ga bole begitu ga? Plis laaa~~ Everyone should go back to the lowest requirements of the QMS, that they don’t tell you HOW it’s done. In other word, they don’t give a shit how it’s done. Yang penting bagi mereka adalah semua requirements terpenuhi. Jadi kalau requirements supplier2 tertentu harus dievaluasi, then prosedur evaluasi harus dibuat. Tapi mau bagaimana dievaluasi, ga ada undang-undangnya Mbak… Kalau bole saya jujur mah.. Gua ga tahu and kagak mau tahuuu.. Maunya loe penuhi requirements itu. Pikiiir donk gimana.. Masak saya juga yang harus mikir. Kemarin uda capek discuss 1 jam sama2, gua da bantu capek2 mikir.. terakhir draft yang gua bikin sesuai dengan hasil discussion dicela lagi.. kenapa bisa begini, kenapa bisa begitu.. Korslet apa kemarin wkt lg discuss? Sekarang nanya panjang lebar lagi.. Mau enaknya aja!

Bikin darah tinggi aja tiap hari begini.

My First Bowling Experience

My dad’s boss who is also my sister’s boss is in Medan this week. Actually I don’t really know him. But we met in Hong Kong when we went there on vacation early this year and he’s very nice. So on this visit, we went bowling. My sister and I never bowl so this is a new experience for us. We went to this old Plaza where the bowling alley is. The building doesn’t look promising since it’s old and shut down already. The only thing that still opens is the bowling and snooker.
So we end up buying socks and renting bowling shoes. The place is very clean and cheap. The cost for the socks are only Rp 3000/pair and shoes rental are the same as well. The cost per game is Rp 8000 and they told us that we can have 5 games for only Rp 20.000 on weekday 11-5 and sunday from 7 pm.. if I remember it correctly.
So first time bowling.. it’s really awkward. I’m not a sport person, never good at sport and never really give it a good try. Maybe it’s been years since I do any sports… even just jogging. So, we learn how to pick the ball, how to hold it and eventually how to bowl. Yes, I had grate ball.. but luckily, I didn’t fall down or go with the ball like I’ve seen in movies (as if it is possible) or throw the ball so hard that it went to other people’s lane. I even got a spare 2 times I guess. We ended up playing 3 sets and I guess I will do it again. It’s quite fun.. though it’s quite embarassing that people around us are expert already. So maybe we will look silly.. like when I drop the ball instead of rolling it. Yeah.. hopefully they remember the first time they start playing and have mercy on us. Now.. I just wish that the pain I have on my left butt and my right hand will go away.

Benci Part II

Ini bukannya pengaruh baca My Stupid Boss seeeh.. Soalnya memang bukan lagi ngomongin boss saya.
Nah jadi tadi pagi saya dapet email dari Marketing buat isi customer questionnaire and semua isinya memang QC related mengenai kandungan produk apakah mengandung zat-zat berbahaya yang disebutkan. Berhubung Akoh QA juga lagi cutay.. so gua forward ke Nyonya dah.
Jadi alkisah si Nyonya yang gua ceritain kemarin itu (baca Triple Benci), baru pulang dari kampung sono juga. Sebagai busy lady yang masi sok mau menguasai segala macam pasal, tentu saja dia sangat sibuk begitu pulang dari cuti 3 hari. Pas gua telpon, dia sok judes. Questionnaire apa? Uda dibilang diminta Marketing dan sudah saya email, Nanya lagi.. email apa? Ya email situ laaa~~ emang situ bisa buka email saya? Masak saya suruh isi tp email ke bokap saya?
Terus Yang Mulia bilang pula.. So??? Sotong kale ya?? So ya mau ente yg isi la wong akoh QA nya lg ga da di tempat. Jadi mau suruh siapa lagi? Eh… mau ITB pula ke GM. Gua cuma jawab dengan nada ngejek… heh??? u want me to pass to hiiiiiim~~~? (dengan nada panjang sekale and makin naik2 ke puncak gunung)
Akhirnya ketawa dia.. mana satu? mana satu? hemm.. it was 9 am in the morning. Emangnya email w ke dia ada brp cuba. Nunggu dia buka lage.. baca satu2 kasi w denger lagi (do I really have to hold and listen???).. tp it’s ok la.. sabaar~~ sebentar lg uda resign.. yg penting dia mau balas. Akhirnya setelah penantian yang terasa sangat amet panjang sekaleee.. dia jawab.. all the answers are No.
I was like.. so you’re not replying my email? yeah.. dunia kerja sekarang ini.. semua harus black and white. Ga ada itu yang namanya feedback verbally. Semua orang bisa memutarbalikkan fakta hanya dalam satu kedipan mata. Dia cuma diem then ntah menggumam2 apa.. tapi akhirnya dibalas juga email gua.. hahhaaha.. 1 halaman chemical list aja gitu lor.. kurang lebih cuma ada 15 nama bahan kimia.. and it takes me like 20 minutes untuk ngomong ke dia. Haiz…
Yang paling nyebelin pas mau pulang. Uda gua lagi sibuk siapin bahan meeting 2 hari untuk Rabu and Kamis.. pas mau pulang, jam 5 teng, dia telp pula. Tiba-tiba dia bilang.. P & G mau audit lor tgl 10. Gua speechless.. so??? trus didesak lagi.. apalagi yang outstanding yang mau dikerjakan?? HEH!!! Jam 5. Gua uda mau pulang. Emang jam 5 gitu dia bisa apain siii kalaupun memang ada yg outstanding? Lagian emang gua robot apa? Begitu dia nanya harus langsung tau jawabannya. Jadi gua cuma bilang mau liat report-nya dulu lah. Ngotot pula.. jadi apa yang outstanding?? Plis de.. first of all.. kita barusan meeting manajemen, so apa2 aja yg outstanding of course ente juga tau (if ente ga tidur waktu meeting kemarin which is baru 3 hari yang lalu). Lagian minute meeting kan baru gua bagi hari ini. Baca donk bacaaaa… nomer dua, kenapa juga loe musti ‘nangkep’ gua gitu pas da jam pulang? What is so urgent that u can’t do it tomorrow? Emang klo gua kasitau, hari itu juga meh bakal loe kerjain? Kesel kali gua, I can’t go into details la bilang apa2 aja yg outstanding.. sekali lagi otak gua bukan otak robot.. jadi gua bilang aja.. mah yang case kemarin loh..yang N2 punya.. kan belum settle..
Nanya lagi.. itu aja? ga da lagi? Kok ngotot banget siiiii!!!! Gua jawab lagi… mau cek report dulu kalau mau tau detail-nya. Dia bilang lagi.. mereka datang audit tgl 10 lorrr (hellooo~~ I’m not deaf!!!!!). Apa loe ga tau? Ya memang saya tidak tauuuu.. kan baru loe kasitauuuu.. makjaaang!!! what do u expect me to do? haizzz.. sekali lagi gua ulangi.. saya mau cek report dulu!!! Akhirnya nyerah juga dia. Capek kali la kalo harus ngurusin yang beginian terus. Bisa cepat tua gua.

My Stupid Boss

My friend introduced me to this blog and it’s indeed really funny. It’s about an Indonesian woman working to an Indonesian boss in KL. His boss is very irritating, stupid indeed, kinda like The Office to be honest. She has published two books from her blog. Some new stories are still updated here though. http://chaosatwork.blogspot.com/

Besides funny, it makes me feel more fortunate for having much greater boss. I don’t think this lady really thinks it’s funny since she’s the one having to put up with this kind of job. But many people seem to like it. It really can brighten up my day after one bad day at work. Gotta check out the book later.

Love Letter

Benci benci benciiiiiii

Kenapa juga si gua kepo banget mau ngecek email kantor di rumah. Gua paling ga suka dilimpahi kerja seenak jidat! Sedikit-sedikit QMS. Prosedur tanya QMS. Ya buat apalah dokumen dibagi.. baca donk baca.. emang gua radio apa atau hotline service? Dikit2 nanya ama gua. Kenapa? Apa gara2 filing cabinet-nya ga kejangkau tangan? Jadi telepon yang dijangkau? Emang dikira kerjaan gua duduk2 nunggu telepon buat orang2 yang ga ngerti (atau ga mau ngerti)???? Uda gitu suka2 lempar kerjaan aja kayak orang ga da kerjaan. Uda itu bidangnya dia kok. Lempar ke gua ya gua lempar balik juga. Tapi intinya bukan dia yang dikejar2 orang, gua-nya jadinya yang dikejar2. Sudah dikejar2 juga ga feedback2, dia yg ga feedback gua yang dikejer. Mau enaknya aja!

Semua2 maunya cepet. Enak aja nanya target date terus? Kapan bisa siap? Kapan dapet sertifikasinya? Dianya ga maju2, disuruh kerja ga jalan2, di-email dicuekin, semua mau standard tp maunya orang ikutin dia! Jadi???? Wth? Pas meeting dengan entengnya ngomong: Saya saja yang kerjakan. Pas ditagih, ga kumpul2. Dikejer2, malah suruh gua yg cari data. Emoh deh. Terakhir dengan entengnya dia bilang ngga ada data. NGGA ADA DATA????? Why should it be my problem? I don’t give a shit kalo situ ga punya data. Kalau ga punya data, emang gua punya data? Bener2 jawaban yang sangat enak. Itu kan uda tanggung jawab dia, apa bole seenaknya ngomong gitu? Jadi ceritanya gua ini bank data? Gua yang harus tau segala-galanya? Gua yang harus hapal semua prosedur (biarpun notabene DIA yang bikin semua prosedur itu). Gua yang harus tau semua jawaban APA dan MENGAPA dia? Why do you think that I give a shit???? I do my job and I expect u and your people do yours!!!! Training buat apa kalau semua2 juga ga ngerti and nanya balik ke gua? Why do you think I’m such an expert? Uda nanya malah balik mempertanyakan penjelasan gua. Well, kita semua ada ikut training. Kalau memang ga satisfied dengan jawaban gua, training kemarin emang tidur?

Entah wise apa ga nulis ginian di blog. But at this point, I don’t give a damn. Udah cukup!!! Gua uda capek. Mau apa juga terserah. Ga bakal lama lagi gua di sono.

The Hanged Man

I was browsing this Tarot website few months ago out of boredom, and I keep getting emails from them every now and then. So, the last email is about The Hanged Man Card which normally indicates the need to make some kind of self-sacrifice, or indicates a need for you to give someone or something up. The email quite interests me since I thought I am in such condition right now.

So the email goes like:

They say that going back to someone or something from your past isn’t normally a good idea, as though ‘going back’ is a ’step backwards’. Although this may sometimes hold true, it certainly isn’t always the case.

How do you know what or who you should give up? Are you considering giving up the right person or the right thing?  Are you looking at your situation from the right perspective? Perhaps all you need to ‘give up’ is a certain attitude you have towards someone or something.

If you feel confused, or fearful of making the wrong choice or decision, because of mixed emotions or powerful and addictive attractions, you can focus or meditate on Tarot readings to help guide you to an intuitive answer.

When The Hanged Man appears, you can be pretty sure he’s saying ‘you’ve got to give something or someone up in order to move on, or at the very least try and look at your situation from a fresh perspective’.

In releasing ourselves from a situation that has become stale, neutral or indeed negative, we can create a new freedom. Limbo-land, or a state where you are lost without direction, is not a great place to be.

So if you find yourself asking questions such as:

• should I go back to someone in my life or let them go?
• should I go back to an ex-lover or not?
• should I stay in my job or leave to pursue greater goals?
• should I end an affair?
• should I leave my partner?
• should I accept that my current business attempts are failing and go back to a job?

you may find ‘The Sign Post’ and the ‘what should I let go of’ readings helpful guides when you’re making a difficult choice or trying to make the decision that is right for you.

Well, I did try the free daily reading on the website and I got the Hanged Man Card. So does it mean that I have to give up something.. or maybe I must look at my situation from a fresh perspective? Where can I get the correct answer? Hmm.. the reading to the answer to my questions is charged so yeah.. I’m not that desperate to pay ^^

I have some things and someone in my past I still can’t let go. I know it’s not healthy and it’s time to move on. Same thing as my job. It has become stale, neutral and negative that I must release myself immediately. So I’m planning to get away from everything, to create my new freedom. Is it considered running away from trouble? I don’t know. Or is it just the best way to eventually move on with a new chapter of my life. I know that I’m gonna risk a lot. Or maybe I just need to look it from a different perspective and it’s actually not that bad. But maybe I don’t have to know the correct answer. People do make mistakes. At least I’m gonna be living life even with mistakes rather than being stagnant all the time.

High Heels Embarassment!

I love high heels. I even love wearing them more in something short. So I was wearing my short skirt today with one of my heels since it’s Saturday and Saturday is casual day, no uniform. I took becak to the spot where my company bus picks me up every morning. And when I’m getting down from the becak, guess what… one of my heels stuck into the holes where our feet supposed to step on when we’re getting off. It’s so embarrassing since there’re other people waiting there also and I’m wearing this very (slightly very) short skirt. One of my feet is already on the ground and the other is hung there stuck in that stupid holes. Damn holes. This never happens before but today I was wearing a stiletto so the heels are so tiny it get caught there T_T. Talk about public embarrassment. I had to take off the shoes to release the heels out of the holes (and it’s not that easy due to my short skirt and the shoes are a bit difficult to be taken off). However, nothing can stop me from wearing them again. I still love my shoes!

2012

I watched this movie yesterday with friends and ended up IM-ing friends along the movie since I’m just too scared to see what the doomsday will be like. I should have known better than to spend 2.5 hours to watch earth destructions (and I mean major earth destruction) like life really doesn’t mean anything anymore. I mean, life is so stressful without having to watch something so stressful. I think movie is supposed to make us have a good time. I love suspense, but not about things that “may” actually happens to ME, like horror movie (who knows when I’m gonna bump into one of those scary stuffs?), or just like this one, the judgement day! It’s not something that I can prevent or do anything to save my butt IF it’s gonna happen. Even if the American government has indeed built a ship to survive, it’s not like I’m gonna have that sum of money to pay for the entrance ticket. And most impossible that my ex (in this case John Cusack) will come to the rescue and save the day. It’s gonna happen anyway. So I really don’t wanna think about it. It’s just so stressful to see those kinds of destruction (though we think one day it’s gonna come anyway). I don’t need a preview. My friends said I’m just taking it too serious. Well.. yeah.. I guess I can be so imaginative at times. But movies do get into me. I will definitely stick to romantic comedy or drama in the future. Overall from my now and then peek on the movie, I guess this movie is just so-so. The effect is good with the tsunami and stuff.. but I guess they overdo it that I get bored.

What’s In A Name

What’s in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet.

William Shakespeare, “Romeo and Juliet”

But a name is a name. It is something that people will remember you by. And I hate it when people spell my name wrong.

I have a rather unique name. Everyone always mistaken me as a boy because of my name. Just now I received an email calling me as a “Mr”. And most people will misspell my name by using V instead of F. It’s quite difficult sometimes when there’s a common standard for a name but people come out with a new variation of it that makes other people often misspell the name as the result. My sisters and I have that kind of trouble. We end up having being mistaken as a boy or having our passport or ID printed wrong. It’s kinda annoying sometimes if I have to go through all the documentation trouble because of my name was spelled wrong.

But what confused me the most is when my close friends, or people who know me by years, still can spell my name wrong. Even if we’re on IM, of course they can see my name pretty clear there. But they still can spell it wrong. I know it’s not big deal but for me, that’s just show how ignorant and how little they care about their so-called friends if they don’t even know how to spell their names.

I myself will try hard to remember how a person’s name being spelled. I pay more attention to it since I think it’s a great deal of importance so I suppose other people will feel the same way. And I guess more effort being put there will be highly appreciated since I don’t think anybody will be happy if their names are being spelled wrong.

So maybe Shakespeare should ask Rose if by other name it will be as sweet, will it mind to be called something else? Well I do mind.

And I have set up my mind not to name my children anything common but try to vary it that may result in name misspell or not to give them opposite sex’s name. A girl can’t be a John as a boy can’t be a Mary. Period.

Some Things are Better Kept Unsaid (or in this case: Unknown)

We talk about honesty all the times. Be yourself! We should tell people how we feel and so on and so on. But in our everyday’s lives, we may encounter a lot of people with different characters. Sometimes we may not find them agreeable or some people are just annoying. I myself will not give a damn about trying to be nice to others who I found annoying. I find it difficult to smile and be nice when these people are really trying my patience. But of course that’d be in my personal life. At work, we must act professionally. So, no matter what the dispute is, work relationship must be maintained. I  can’t stop interacting with certain people just because I don’t like them. I just don’t make friends with them.

Now how about friends at work? These people are close to our personal life and also with whom we must interact professionally. But what will happen when the friendship wrecks? We still have to see each other and work together everyday. Can we be so selfish as to announce war and fight each other or just be civil and keep certain things unsaid?

I have (or may I say “had”) a friend at work. Let’s call her M. We’re quite close back then until recently M made this distance between her and the rest of the gank. Things are quite bad between us back then though nothing’s been said. We didn’t know what with her changes. M just kept herself away from us. Then I read her blog where she said that she’s been hating our other friend (E) and has been hating E more. I mentioned this in my previous blog. Well, E didn’t know it until today when she read M’s blog. Before E knew, their relationship is still very good. I don’t know what’s with M. She posted this hate blog, ignored us for some time, only talked when necessary then she’s back to her usual self again but keep remaining the distance from us, blocked us from her personal life. So, we just let her be. Then, today when E read M’s blog about her, things become quite difficult. How can E act around M normally for now she knows how M really feels about her. Despite of her smile and jokes, M actually hates E.

I also don’t know what’s on M’s mind? She knew that we all knew about her blog, so why posting something like that on her blog? Does she really want us to know about her true feeling? Or maybe she’s just an idiot? Some things are just better kept unsaid. When you know that your friends have access to your blog, will you be foolish enough to talk trash on them on your blog? Will you.. when you still have to face them everyday? When you’re working with them? Or if you ever cherish all these times we’ve been together? What sort of friend is that? Maybe she thinks she doesn’t need us anymore? Well, I don’t know, how can she be so sure? Just don’t come crawling for help in the future. And now as she’s foolish enough to say it out loud, the best I can hope that it is left unknown. But yet, things don’t always go as we want. It’s just the ugly truth.